No More Tears, No More Pain

These two ladies are my life!! Mom on left 56 sis on right 27! I know we don't age much....I want to say they have been through alot of nonsense in their life as well with the perpetrator ....they now have a beautiful smile upon there faces because GOD has shown them a brighter side to !! We all are truly blessed in many many ways....we are blessed to be , I'm blessed to be a and able to tell my story of child mo**station. So many don't have a chance to get it out!! They both have been here for me to lean on to talk to to cry to and to trust! Once my mom was aware of the abuse she was hurt to her I seen and heard it in her voice. My sister was only a newborn til age 2 when I departed for my safety!!

I was abused for over a decade by my biological father. I lived in a nutshell for years, even up to adulthood. I was threatened to about the mo**station! I was afraid to even open up to tell my . My mother didn't even know it was going on right under her nose. My abuser hide it very well, besides that my mom she was a wife for 15 long years. I always prayed and knew GOD heard my cries, he gave me plenty off signs of better days ahead! Finally I was able to escape the abuse at 15. I moved with my my grace. As the years passed I knew I had to some how SPEAK OUT about the TRUTH, so I wrote a memoir of my childhood mo**station, and physical, emotional, verbal, abuse that went on in our military household. I was finally able to express my feelings, of my ....if you would like a copy please let me know. It is a 214 page Book with pictures, and important abuse statistics as well as my signature! The book is $17.95 includes a glossy cover and printing fees. I also have a online copy ready to forward to you at anytime for a price of $9.95. There are options pf paying paypal, money gram, or a personal check. Thanks for the support!

ATTENTION....This is the man which is my biological father that chose to mo**st his daughter from ages 4-15! He chose to steal his daughters innocence...he chose to be a complete demon for the entire 39 years I have known him! He is really a poor excuse as a father...let alone a human...he is a very dangerous human being!! He is a totally different person ...that's why I wrote my book ... ...based on actual things that took place in my childhood, adolescence, adult life....I truly truly for my escape at 15 years old....

Hello everyone! What a beautiful day! I haven't posted in a while....alot has gone on since then, nothing major just life I guess.....GOD is good...I continue to pray that he guides, and leads me in the right direction...I will continue to move forward...pushing myself further away from the past...I ask GOD to give me strength, wisdom, knowledge, to handle my business....GOD bless...

Hello everyone!! Haven't posted in a while! I have my days...overall I have been through a changing cycle in my life!! I have been back and forth with depression...anxiety...which are two of my partners you could say...but lately out of its norm!! I missed appt with therapist and psychiatrist...just couldn't make it or didn't feel like going...what good does that do me?...none...have to reschedule asap...really tired of trying different meds over time periods...nothing seems to work really....that is the #1 sign of a disability can't be fixed with meds....so now I continue to pray and ask GOD to guide and lead me in the right direction...he has a plan for each and everyone of us...it is if you take heed to that in time...So my days forward I have to give it my best!! I have a movement I want to SPEAK OUT about!! Talk about "sexual abuse" to youngsters...because that is where it starts!! I don't want those innocent children to breathe their lives away..with pain...growing older..like WE DID!! I want them to learn how to SPEAK OUT!! Because I couldn't, didn't...GOD BLESS U!!

This is important why we need to break its chain!!

Hello everyone!! Today has been a good day...I'm continuously promoting my BOOK...I have a purpose of writing my story.... I continue to pray and ask GOD to guide and lead me in the right direction...I have surly come along way....so now my plan is to HELP OTHERS...make it out of that nutshell...where I was stuck at for years....then one day GOD showed me I have a VOICE!! Every since then I have been lending a helping hand....advocating...on a daily basis..and so on.....so if you can purchase my Book please do so..its $9.95 available online from me to your email address...paypal accepted...set up a free paypal account no obligations...or fees its FREE!!! YOUR NEVER ALONE!! GOD Bless your Heart...

Hello beautiful ladies!! Today I want to share my feelings about these two boys!! My children man if it wasn't for them & GOD himself I don't know where I would be right now!! They have given me what I needed to carry on!! Once I gave birth 12 &16 years ago I became a different woman....I have surly picked up the peices and left some behind that were horrible memories....I have written a book about my childhood abuse and trauma...my boys are aware of what happened to me....they are disappointed I had to face such harm in my childhood years!! So with that being said they are ASKING THAT YOU SUPPORT THEIR MOM...BUY HER BOOK read her story it is an inspiration to many! She wrote it for others to see what she has been through....our mother has a caring HEART! You all are SURVIVORS...STICK TOGETHER AND LET'S HELP STOP THIS CHAIN OF CHILD ABUSE WITH MOMMA!! WE... Love everyone...Raekwon & Jamaari Gillespie...GOD each and everyone of you all!!! Book is $7.95 she can email it to you...she has 100'/. Control over her story....AMEN...

Hello beautiful ladies!! Today I would like to talk about MOTIVATION....I struggle with this everyday actually all day!! It's so hard just being Me...I had a very traumatizing childhood...which has scarred me...but GOD has helped me MOVE FORWARD!! I'm very THANKFUL...GOD has blessed me to write a BOOK...write about actually how hard it was growing up in a military household being abused by my father on a day to day basis!! I want you to PURCHASE my Book...it's an inspiration for many...it doesn't have obseen gestures, or profanity in it...It doesn't even downgrade the pedophile....It a helpless, powerless, innocent story that happens behind closed DOORS everyday somewhere in the WORLD...LET'S CONTINUE TO EDUCATE OUR PEOPLE...SO WE CAN STOP THE CHAIN!!! Book $7.95 pay pal accepted...please inbox for my email address or phone number to submit payment...THANK YOU GOD BLESS!!

Hello beautiful ladies!! I haven't been up here on my fan page in a while....Alot has been on my "mind". With graduating from Liberal Studies and right into another course the very next day...no break in between....of me.starting a New course Human Services...which I think is my calling...YES Lord Thank U!! I have only a year and a half to take this course because I have all my credits needed...WHEW....I can finally become that Social Worker of welfare, or psychiatry, or Drug Abuse Cunsellor....I would also like to may be assist in removing abused CHILDREN from an abusive household!! You know I'm very pleased to see that I was able to come outta that "nutshell" where I was imbedded in soooo long, wouldn't open up to anyone....about my abuse. FINALLY I'm able to TALK...and want to help others in desperate need!! GOD has a purpose for each one of us....I'm pleased to know I'm almost 40 end this year and I say work in the field for 25 years and retire....meanwhile start a non-profit organization to open up for a group of individuals that have been mo**sted, abused, raped...to be able to come and just have that SOMEONE to TALK too...and a resource center as ..to be able to pick up brochures to help u pick yourself up!!! GOD BLESS U!!

Hello EVERYONE!! Notice I have a smile on my face!! Something that is very hard to do most of the time for me...well reasoning I have alot of memories of pain...I have chosen not to let it show! I wanted to finally MOVE BEYOND!! I can say I have actually done that...well what makes it possible is because for one I have I have yes FORGIVEN the abuser which is LOUIS . GILLESPIE my father....ONLY IN MY HEART THO.....well I say he really don't deserve to be called father, nor dad!! So I had chance to GET IT OUT & SAY NO MORE!! I have written my story to not only HELP myself but to help you all as well! It's pain that we all have been through at some point...I have been able to SHINE BEYOND THE PAIN....SO CAN U...support my BOOK "NO MORE TEARS...NO MORE PAIN....I can send the book directly to your email automatically...for small donation of $7.95! Includes pictures, messages, what to do in case your being abused, statistics, as well as a phone number to call in case of an issue with abuse!! THANKS LADIES GOD BLESS!! Payments accpeted through pay pal..through your debit credit card or checking account.....